First attempt at the blogging scene!

Wow what a vast and empty space this seems right now. I feel like I'm speaking to thin air.... almost like I'm back at work! lol

I almost erased that and started over again but hey, its a blog, aren't I supposed to write whats on my mind?

Here's the plan. I decided to start blogging for my own benefit. I think letting things out at the end of the day through writing will probably be cathartic and quite the de-stresser.

I'm 28, single, and own my own home. I have a wonderful dog named Cuddy who keeps me company and acts as my personal home alarm system. He's great company and I love him dearly. I am extremely fortunate to live close to my immediate family. I am a 15 min walk or 3 min drive from my parents and my brother's places. I have a great career that I love. It keeps me on my toes and there is never a dull day.

I have everything I could ever need, and feel very blessed to have the life I do. The one thing that I would like would be to meet someone, but what I think I would like better, would be to feel like I don't need to feel that way. I hate how I have such a fantastic life but somehow feel inadequate because I'm still single. Why do I need a man to feel whole or complete. Everything seems to be within my power to achieve except for finding a soul mate. And If you asked my parents they would say I did everything "right" meaning: I got an education, I got my dream job, paid off some debt and now own my own house. But I think even in their eyes it's just not enough. Like I'm disappointing them. Falling in love, getting married and having kids are not things I can simply go and do. I'm getting older, I'm outspoken, too independent and overweight. It just seems impossible.... SO I've decided to give up.

This summer I refuse to focus on men, relationships, weight loss, dieting, exercising. Screw it! I'm going to forget it all. I want to have fun, plant a garden, do some renos in the house, read incredibly smutty romance novels, relax at the cottage, sleep in, watch some good movies, reconnect with old friends, maybe do some light travelling, and not worry about a single thing. THAT'S IT! I want to STOP caring about being alone. I want to be comfortable in the knowledge that I'm alone and that I may be that way forever and I want to be OK with that!

Time for bed.

A demain!